What is Fair?

So its been a bit longer than I would have liked since I posted on here, lets hope this doesn't happen often.  Just reflecting on the last few days and such I figured before I go to bed I might as well post something while thoughts are fresh.

So I sometimes find myself getting in these drawn out moods where I just don't seem to care much about things happening. I guess you could say I just get "bored" with things going on around me and in my life. Without going into details I basically get bitter with things and then start complaining in my head, which in light of a couple services at Grace has be en a convicting issue recently. So tonight while just closing my eyes and laying down, I just examined some thoughts and brought them to God. This is the outcome of this session:

While sitting there I began the thought process in a sense with the "its just not fair..." type of mentality. Its funny in the midst of these moments how God seems to do things to humble us. When Job did this (Job 38+) God comes down hard and basically K.O.s Job. For me tonight He just kind of brought up this in my head: "Is it REALLY unfair?" This of course spurs on the thought process. Is it fair for me to complain about xyz? Well if I was looking at my life through a worldly eyeglass then yes! it is! but as I've learned in my life I don't much think God give two craps for the worlds eyeglass, but rather wants us to see HIM.

This brings me to the good stuff within this post. Tonight at campaigners we split into groups and one of the groups to describe who Jesus was and why he came used Hebrews 12:2. So in this time this verse immediately comes to mind, as well as a ton of other thoughts, in light of the "whats fair" conflict.  Jesus came down from Heaven, walked the earth for 33 years, and was "put to death by those he came to save." Sounds fair right? He was called crazy, mocked, spat on, back stabbed, beaten, and eventually put to death in a manor many would say is the most painful way to torture a person, all while be perfect and innocent. And on top of this He bore the wrath of God for me! "....WHO FOR THE JOY SET BEFORE HIM ENDURED THE CROSS..." Humbled much? That should be considered "unfair" yet so often I just seem to wander from this truth.

So Ill continue to pray:
Lord in front of all my decisions remind me of Your Cross. In front of all my plans remind me of Yourself. When I wake up, wake me up with the thought of your Grace. When I go to sleep churn within my mind a hunger for the Gospel. As I go through life make your Name Hallowed more each day. Help me to know your Grace more, and to love those around me with this same love. AMEN.